When Leaving Jesus Means Losing Your Family..

Think not that I
am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword.
For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the
daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother
in law. And a man’s foes shall be they of his own household.

-Jesus, Matthew 10:34-36

When my Gen Y friend Michael
confessed publicly that he couldn’t believe any longer, it cost him a
full ride scholarship and all of his friends but three. But that wasn’t
the worst of it. Michael had to make a choice: He could stay in his
parents’ home only if he refrained from "spiritual pornography,"
meaning any media that were critical of faith. He could stay there only
if he kept his doubts muted and invisible. Michael said he couldn’t do
that and moved out. His mother said it would have been better had he
died. His father banned Michael from seeing beloved younger siblings
without supervision. (Apparently spiritual pornography can lead to
spiritual pedophilia?) Loneliness and despair took him to the brink of
suicide.

Michael is warm, funny,
and fiercely smart. Today he is back in school at a secular university,
going it alone, working his way toward becoming a brain scientist. But
the choices he was forced to face and the rejection he experienced are
matched in our society only for kids who confess that they are gay.

According to recent Pew data, sixteen percent of Americans say that
they don’t have a religious affiliation. Other surveys would suggest
that most of these still believe in some kind of god, and many probably
still identify in some way with Christian teachings. But the fact is, a
sizeable number of us no longer ascribe to the faith(s) of our fathers.
And for those whose fathers serve a jealous god, the price can be high.

From testimonials at places like exChristian.net; exMormon.org; Faithfreedom.org
(leaving Islam) we know that Michael’s despair and desperation were not
unique. Many who lose religion muddle along in silent shame — wanting
to believe, praying desperately for doubts to be removed, blaming
themselves and fending off images of eternal torture before finally
giving up the fight. Granted, some lucky few simply flip a bit, but
others find themselves dragged reluctantly into an internal conflict
takes years.

Most religions implant psychological safeguards against apostasy,
little emotional bombs of fear, guilt, shame and self-loathing that get
triggered by the mere act of questioning. In religious orthodoxy, doubt
is the domain of fools. It is the consequence of having hardened your
heart like Pharaoh or resenting God’s power like Lucifer. Oh ye of
little faith!

Now add to loss and self-loathing a crush of rejection by people who
have loved you "unconditionally": friends, cousins, siblings, parents,
or even a spouse. When I was a suicidal nineteen-year-old (still a
believer), a woman I had looked up to for years, apologized for having
counseled me as a Christian when in hindsight I clearly was not. But
even now, despite my public apostasy, my family has never cut me off,
nor I them. We walk a loving, if uncomfortable line with each other.
Our compatibility depends on things not said as much as it depends on
conversation, but the common ground is also real.

Not everyone is so lucky. Some families cannot get past revulsion
and sense of betrayal they feel toward a member who has literally
broken faith. Manifest examples of kindness, integrity, warmth, or
generosity get reinterpreted. They were never real — or the person has
changed utterly.

Some former believers, fragile in either their disbelief or their
self-worth, can’t stand to be in the relentless presence of even
unspoken disapproval. Others try to reach out to family members and get
turned away with harsh words or silent shunning. Still others face a
barrage of re-conversion efforts at any family gathering.

A divorce can get initiated by either side. Either way, it is the
renegade who is most likely to end up alone and symptomatic. Think
about it: for a person who has already lost a god and consequently a
core part of the self, to sever ties with family is an act of
desperation or sheer self preservation.

Returning to my earlier comparison with gay kids coming out — we
all know what the worst case scenarios look like. In major cities
across the country, outreach programs offer a helping hand to homeless
and often self-destructive gay teens, kids who have been given the boot
by parents who think they might as well be dead. But who is offering
support to kids or adults who lose their religion?

Even among my professional peers, psychologists, far too few
understand the depth of harm that can be done to the psyche by
fundamentalist religion — religion that subsumes the individual self
to a cult self. The irony is that few mental health professionals are
sympathetic to the claims of moral dogma. The practicing therapist is
exposed daily to life’s caprice: biochemical malfunctions,
developmental vagaries, and rotten life circumstances. In contrast to a
religious perspective, psychology seeks to understand material and
historical roots of symptoms rather than making moral judgments. So the
problem is not that the professional world view aligns with a dogmatic
world view. It is just that, in the absence of dramatic evidence to the
contrary, we are all taught to think of religion as harmless.

It’s time to give up the illusion.

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About Valerie Tarico

Seattle psychologist and writer. Author - Trusting Doubt and Deas and Other Imaginings. Founder - www.WisdomCommons.org.
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One Response to When Leaving Jesus Means Losing Your Family..

  1. Sunshyne SN is Gods Transforming Me says:

    I am a practicing Christian Psychologist.  I have had my Doctoriates for many years. Yes, many of my colleagues of the science world do believe that the price one pays for  believing in a God can be damaging to ones psyche, I on the other hand believe this to be untrue.  I do not belong or an organized religion.  I am a non-denominational Christian Minister and a Doctor. I try to teach that morals are definitely very important especially in todays world. I still believe in th foundations of marriage and family. Yes, I am human like everyone else and make mistakes. I am married and have three children and four grandchildren.  I am proud of my children today because they did listen to the things that their father and I taught them and they have good morals and are passing them right down to their own children. TV, music and the outside world which we must live can be very unkind. Some of our families can also be very unkind.  I personally did not grow up in the all american family goody two-shoed situation. However, since I did not want to live the way I grew up, I had to change the way I wanted to live and bring up my own family in the manner that I felt was right and not as corrupt as what we are seeing now.  I went through all hell, and came out a newer person from when I started.  I was lucky to have found a Woman’s Christian group who helped me to grow and deal with the ghosts of the past. Ones I was able to go through all that and get my own head in the right place for me, then I was able to carry on my life in the world of Non-Denominational Christianity.  So let’s not dog all therapists, psychiatrist and the world of mental health and sciences.  It all depends on where you received your schooling, teachings and not make judgement calls on all.  You have to teach morals just as well as look at the symptomatics of the illness or problem.
     
    To God Be the Glory and Blessings to you.

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